Your life is NOW.
I know you try to be in it, to stay present, to be here as it is happening.
But I admonish you to try even harder. Not with sheer willpower, but with surrender.
Surrender as hard as you can. Surrender to life as it is. And trust. Trust in the good despite your experience.
As Jordan Peterson says,
You, my dear, will not build that ugly hut. Instead, you drop your rough tools, open your chest and shoulders, throw your arms back. Lift your chin and declare yourself alive, hopeful, and the kind of person who lives in joy.
How? All I can tell you is that you get there. Here. And it’s worth it.